YOU ARE NOT FROM HERE
Why you feel like an alien in your own life
The Root of the Soul (Shoresh HaNeshama) does not belong to the level of Creation at all. Before the Contraction (Tzimtzum), there were no worlds, no vessels, no boundaries. There was only Simple Light filling all of reality. The Soul, in its root, is not a separate entity. It is a revelation of that same Light.
The Alienation
From the perspective of its Root, the Soul has no essential relationship to this place of concealment, separation, and Ego-Consciousness. This World (Olam HaZeh) is built on the experience of separateness. It is built on time and process. This is the exact opposite of Simple Unity.
Therefore, from the perspective of the Root, there is no belonging. The Soul is not a product of this system. It does not belong to the laws of survival, to status struggles, or to the consciousness of lack. The feeling of Existential Alienation experienced by deep people is not imagination. It is a dim metaphysical memory of a reality before separation.
The Paradox
But here the depth of the paradox is revealed. If there were no connection, there would have been no descent. The very fact that you are here teaches that there is a relationship. But it is not a relationship of Identity. It is a relationship of Purpose.
The Mission
The purpose of Creation is to Bestow Good. But complete bestowal requires the reality of an independent receiver. Independence requires Concealment. Concealment requires a World. The World is a condition for revelation.
The Soul does not belong to the World by nature. But it is tied to it by destiny: To clarify, to correct, and to transform the Will to Receive into a Will to Bestow.
The Conflict
The Soul Root is pure Influence (Giving). This World is pure Reception (Taking). The feeling “I don’t belong here” is created by the collision between the frequency of the Root and the frequency of the Vessel.
The Strategy: Dual Awareness
The deep Kabbalistic stance is neither Disconnection (Escapism) nor Identification (Materialism). It is Dual Awareness. To know that your true identity does not depend on the world. And simultaneously, to understand that the world is the only unit where you can reveal that identity in practice.
The Conclusion
At the end of the process, it becomes clear: The strangeness was not designed to make you run away from reality. It was designed so you wouldn’t identify with it completely. The descent was not designed for you to get lost in the material. It was designed for you to illuminate it.
You are not “from here.” You were sent here. For a purpose.
Translated from the Hebrew Transmissions of Ruth Kedem
ORIYA’S NOTE
We have a name for people who feel like they don’t belong on this planet. We call them “Depressed.” Or “Dissociated.” Or “Dreamers.”
But the text says: You aren’t sick. You are just an expatriate.
Imagine you are a deep-sea diver. You put on a heavy, clumsy suit. You attach lead weights to your boots. You jump into the freezing, dark ocean. While you are down there welding a pipe, you feel heavy. You feel slow. You can’t breathe the water. You think: “I don’t belong here. This environment is hostile.”
You are right. You don’t belong there. You belong on the surface, in the sun, breathing air. But if you take off the suit while you are underwater, you die. And if you refuse to jump in the water, the work doesn’t get done.
The feeling of “Alienation” is your safety line. It reminds you that The Suit is not You. If you felt perfectly at home here—if you loved the status games, the ego wars, the survival panic—you would drown. You would forget the surface.
You are an undercover agent behind enemy lines. The discomfort is what keeps your cover from becoming your identity. Don’t try to cure the alienation. Use it. It’s the only thing reminding you who you work for.