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Driven by a deep yearning to help others heal, I escaped a strict religious upbringing marked by addiction. America offered the promise of reinvention β tech stardom, self-help mastery. Yet, beneath every "shadow career" lurked a fear: if I revealed my messy truth, I'd be rejected, forever an outsider. π
Spiritual Seeking with a Dark Side:
Health crises led me to California and a renowned spiritual organization. I thought I'd found my path, only to witness the seductive trap of unchecked power. Seeking deeper healing, I embraced shamanism, finally touching my healer's heart. π
The Shadow Career Battle
Becoming an 'urban shaman' felt like destiny, but I relied on the same substances I offered others, hiding my unhealed wounds. This intense inner conflict lasted for years. I knew to be an authentic guide, I had to become my own medicine, yet the fear of revealing my mistakes, of being "tainted goods", kept me trapped. βοΈ
Running Back Home, Only to Face Myself:
At 37, I returned home, tail between my legs, carrying the same demons I'd fled 23 years earlier. This time, with a family of my own, I was determined to heal. For seven years, I turned inward, tried "normal" life in tech, but my soul wouldn't be silenced. π€«
Surrender & Invitation:
Just before turning 44, I surrendered. I am the Reluctant Guru, ready to serve despite my fears, because true liberation comes from owning your whole story, no matter how messy. This Substack is my offering. Here, I bravely share my journey β triumphs, mistakes, and hard-earned lessons. Let my story inspire you, caution you, and show you that you're not alone. β¨
The Invitation:
Are you struggling to embrace your own truth?
Call to Action:
Ready to break free and reconnect with your inner wisdom? πͺ
Book a complimentary, no-obligation exploration session. Discover if I can support you in:
Uncovering your own story and the powerful medicine it holds.
Finding clarity and purpose amidst life's challenges.
Sharing your story on my platform to inspire others.
This is awesome, Oriya